It's all a bit unbelievable as I learn to believe.
It's interesting how I react to my experiences. I'll notice my reaction and see how it affects me, how I affect it. Sometimes I react before I even begin the experience; then I remind myself later that I shouldn't make assumptions. I shouldn't create these alternative realities inside my head to be let down or shocked when I am truly in the moment of experiencing whatever it was I looking forward to. When it has all sunken in and passed I bring it back into my thoughts and my reality. I warp the experience in which I know the truth of, but resist it and tell myself lies. I begin to realize that the moment is the only time we have control over. This moment now is the only time I will ever be able to act in. This moment now is the only time I can pursue my thoughts and change my reality; not into something that i've imagined from the past but a creation of myself in the moment.
A couple of weeks ago, before school got out for winter break, My friend/sister Jamie had an timeshare in Tahoe. There was one day left and the room wasn't being used, so we got some friends together (Jamie, my sister Ruby, another good friend Harly). We packed our stuff into the car anything we might possibly need in one days time in Tahoe. We each brought our sharing items (snacks trinkets crafts etc). Boots for hiking, bathing suits for the pool, and the hundreds of great jam songs.
On our way up under the starry night sky, through the snowy mountains as we were all singing along, we collectively contributed to the idea, and fact, that we need to start a band. Ruby nominated herself to invent instruments that require no musical talent whatsoever. Harly- guitar and hula hoop dancer. Jamie- singer. and I would play whatever instrument I could learn by watching a tutorial video. After no songs were produced I decided to write some originals, I still haven't found a tune of music to sing them in but I have words.
It's interesting how I react to my experiences. I'll notice my reaction and see how it affects me, how I affect it. Sometimes I react before I even begin the experience; then I remind myself later that I shouldn't make assumptions. I shouldn't create these alternative realities inside my head to be let down or shocked when I am truly in the moment of experiencing whatever it was I looking forward to. When it has all sunken in and passed I bring it back into my thoughts and my reality. I warp the experience in which I know the truth of, but resist it and tell myself lies. I begin to realize that the moment is the only time we have control over. This moment now is the only time I will ever be able to act in. This moment now is the only time I can pursue my thoughts and change my reality; not into something that i've imagined from the past but a creation of myself in the moment.
A couple of weeks ago, before school got out for winter break, My friend/sister Jamie had an timeshare in Tahoe. There was one day left and the room wasn't being used, so we got some friends together (Jamie, my sister Ruby, another good friend Harly). We packed our stuff into the car anything we might possibly need in one days time in Tahoe. We each brought our sharing items (snacks trinkets crafts etc). Boots for hiking, bathing suits for the pool, and the hundreds of great jam songs.
On our way up under the starry night sky, through the snowy mountains as we were all singing along, we collectively contributed to the idea, and fact, that we need to start a band. Ruby nominated herself to invent instruments that require no musical talent whatsoever. Harly- guitar and hula hoop dancer. Jamie- singer. and I would play whatever instrument I could learn by watching a tutorial video. After no songs were produced I decided to write some originals, I still haven't found a tune of music to sing them in but I have words.
Come to me crying, come to me flying
Come to me up come to me down
I'll listen to your smile and I'll hear you frown
Together we can swim against the current
that is constantly making us drown
We'll watch the trees turn from green to brown
Close your eyes and send yourself away.
Send yourself far away, back to today
Let's feed the beasts then slay them all away
I'll find my king in the tower waiting with flowers
Till I breathe no more I'll be here and happy
Not a single thing will roll me over
My track is now clear, I can take these steps.
Leading to where I do not know yet
Together we will all walk and grow.
The moon is bright the blood is thick
We're only so tough until we notice our clock tick
Tick tok tick tok until we fall like rocks
Until I burn like ice and freeze like fire I'll be so happy full of love and desire
My flames will run in and out of creases
I am the only one who can say when it ceases
Drown me in your happiness
Wrap me in your love
I am the wind, the soft white dove
Row me in your boat
living protected by my castle mote
Pick up your binoculars and look across the lake
I spy a little fish in the bottom of the sea.
It's yellow and blue with eyes that look like drops of dew
On the bank of the water there's a little paddle boat
Take it across and find my mote
Leave my a message a letter or note
Tell me your fine, oh how you sparkle in my mind.
You are mine
You one of kind.
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