From traveling with my family I've seen how absolutely frustrated I can become. I get so frustrated to where I can't see a bright side to anything. It can take me days to bring something good out of a bad day. Sometimes I'll realize how my frustrations are reflections of myself, or I will be able to see what I can do or not do to lower the chances of me getting frustrated in the same way again.
There have been times where I feel so exhausted and depleted of any motivation. I didn't know how many buttons I had for other people to push until my dad infiltrated my entire mechanical system. His voice can be like a dog whistle inside my head.
I haven't had any free time to think about what I would want to be doing or even what I would want to be hearing. Now that I am with my sister Katelyn and her family I can look into their eyes and see how filled with happiness someone can be. Whether it's a forced laugh because they can't get their excitement out any other way, or if they're getting tickled by one of their favorite people in the whole world, and have so much joy billowing out of them.
However, between every extremity of emotion; from the deepest depths of frustration to the highest point of joy, I've noticed myself at times reading a point where it is all apparent to me; where I am able to witness everything that is happening around me, manifesting around me, and growing around me. Managing to find my place in my surroundings and see where I fit in, is one thing I have worked on in the recent past.
Every moment of frustration and irritation I can now see as gratitude. I cherish everyone in my life more and more knowing that many people MUST feel the same way towards me. Being in places where nobody has materialistic things has made me so much more grateful for everything I have. It's made me think about the things I desire to have, the things I need and how to know the difference.
After moving from place to place, town to town, and country to country, I cherish what I have, I don't yearn for the things I don't have, and I make the best out of this moment because it's all I have.
There have been times where I feel so exhausted and depleted of any motivation. I didn't know how many buttons I had for other people to push until my dad infiltrated my entire mechanical system. His voice can be like a dog whistle inside my head.
I haven't had any free time to think about what I would want to be doing or even what I would want to be hearing. Now that I am with my sister Katelyn and her family I can look into their eyes and see how filled with happiness someone can be. Whether it's a forced laugh because they can't get their excitement out any other way, or if they're getting tickled by one of their favorite people in the whole world, and have so much joy billowing out of them.
However, between every extremity of emotion; from the deepest depths of frustration to the highest point of joy, I've noticed myself at times reading a point where it is all apparent to me; where I am able to witness everything that is happening around me, manifesting around me, and growing around me. Managing to find my place in my surroundings and see where I fit in, is one thing I have worked on in the recent past.
Every moment of frustration and irritation I can now see as gratitude. I cherish everyone in my life more and more knowing that many people MUST feel the same way towards me. Being in places where nobody has materialistic things has made me so much more grateful for everything I have. It's made me think about the things I desire to have, the things I need and how to know the difference.
After moving from place to place, town to town, and country to country, I cherish what I have, I don't yearn for the things I don't have, and I make the best out of this moment because it's all I have.
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